I am so sorry Girls

10/29/09


This morning Mom was not the best she could be. I really have no excuse for my comments and reactions. I am the adult and should behave better. I am really sorry I said I am done being your mom. I know you both were not listening and you both were sassing me and you both pushed all my buttons... I should never have said that. What I said was since you two don't want to listen you must not want me to be your mom so I'll stop for now. I NEVER Meant it and I am so very sorry. When you read this update I need you to know that I am human too. I make mistakes and that was a big one. I will love you forever and be your Mom even when you don't want me to. That is what I should have said. All I can say in my defense is work has been very stressful, I have been fighting a wicked cold/virus and have no energy to get anything done. I am tired of driving all over the place and tired of not being at home and I am stressed out about my bills and all the things that need to be fixed in the house. But the most important thing I do is take care of you two and I fear I am not doing the best I can for you two. I promise to make sure to do the best I can every day for you both. I love you Elizabeth. I love you Ella. Mom makes mistakes too and I hope you forgive me and that I didn't damage you forever. I still remember the time Dad said he wished he had died instead of Mom and how hard that was to hear. I know now that he meant it was so hard being the parent and that he missed his wife but it scared me. I hope I didn't just do the same to you.