2011
Time to make changes for me
I don't like the way I look or feel.
I don't like spending alot of our family time in the van
I don't like not having fun
I don't have enough time in the week to get ahead of the big list in my head.
I am not enjoying my time at work
I don't like that my dad has Parkingsons
I don't like seeing him decline
I don't like hearing Ella realize her missing tooth makes her feel different.
I don't know how to help her deal with the frustrations of life. Once in a while Angry Ella pops back in. And it makes me wonder. Is there something going on she is feeling anxious about? But once in a while she will overreacte to something I ask her to do. Today it was her homework. I told her she needed to write her numbers better. She cried that she didn't want to live with us anymore. How can a little girl go from loving me to so sad? And just a few minutes later she was hugging me and giving me the Ella love.
Elizabeth is so strong and then once in awhile she turns from me - is it because she is 9 and growing up or is it because I am not meeting her needs?
Reminder to me to pray to God for help and guidance during all this strife in our life
Dear Lord,
Please help me accept your plan for Dad. Please help me to push myself to eat better and lose weight and please help me bring my daughters back home to my heart. I love them and worry they don't know it as well as they should.
Thursday, November 23, 2017
Adoption is hard on kids
03 25 2014
Last night Ella and I were reading a book about bugs making a family of their own after their parent's leave. I think its called Dragonflies. Anyway, when we were a few pages in Ella looked at me and said the book was a little emotional. And one tear started. I put the book down and asked Ella if this was bringing up other feelings for her? Yes, missing. Who are you missing? She cried a bit more and then I asked, your birth family? You read my mind Mom. She went on to cry for about 20 or 30 minutes and told me her memories. Everytime she talks about a Mom in China, the mom always has her hair in a pony tail and is wearing a green shirt. This time she added blue pants and said the lady was her birth mom, other times she is her foster mom but the outfit and pony tail never change.
We talked about how adoption is a happy and sad thing at the same time. Happy because we get to be a family but for that to happen, Ella's first (and second) family needed to let her go. Ella was pretty honest last night and I was glad for that. I wish this wasn't sad but it is and I am glad Ella talked about it instead of stuffing it back in. She did say that she had stuffed it back in before but she still is sad. I hope this shows Ella she can talk to me about this. I think she was a little worried that my feelings would be hurt when she admitted she would like to be in China with her birth family. I assured her it didn't hurt my feelings because I know she loves me and she loves her Birth family and she added her Foster family too. We are a forever family and nothing will stop that. But, I do wish we could know her birth and foster families. Ella also said if her birth family had been able to keep her, then she would not have known me and that made her sad too. I tried telling her that she wouldn't have known me either way so it wouldn't have been sad but I understood what she was saying. She is being pulled in directions and I hope she feels a bit better about sharing it with me. I did cry but only because I hurt for Ella, not because I was hurt. I think its important to talk about these feelings and to trust in me to help. I think we did that.
Ella also talked about how China people want boys and that her birth family was maybe poor and couldn't afford the bottles to feed her or already had a daughter and couldn't keep her. To know my girls have these thoughts breaks my hearts for them, but it is their reality and it is better to talk about it with me than to listen to other people that don't know the whole story. As I told Ella, I believe your birth family loves you and loved you then. They tried to keep you but you were so tiny when they left you at the orphanage that it was a good chance they couldn't feed you and wanted you to be healthy. I also tell both my girls that we will never know for sure and I wish we could but I believe they were loved.
Dear Vi
Thank you for all your support when I was thinking of adoption as a way to be a mom.
06/04/2012
Your letter that you wrote to my social worker Laura was amazing. Your support meant the world to me. My Dad also thought the world of you and all the help you gave me at API and after. I will always remember your help in wallpapering my kitchen in my first home after we all were laid off from API. I also remember how you and Mark welcomed Elizabeth into your hearts and home. And then life got crazy for you with your grandchildren and for me with my family.
My prayers are with your family now.
I am sorry we weren't more in touch. I know you were living your dream with your family and I was busy with mine as well. But, I always meant to call you more. I will miss you.
06/04/2012
Your letter that you wrote to my social worker Laura was amazing. Your support meant the world to me. My Dad also thought the world of you and all the help you gave me at API and after. I will always remember your help in wallpapering my kitchen in my first home after we all were laid off from API. I also remember how you and Mark welcomed Elizabeth into your hearts and home. And then life got crazy for you with your grandchildren and for me with my family.
My prayers are with your family now.
I am sorry we weren't more in touch. I know you were living your dream with your family and I was busy with mine as well. But, I always meant to call you more. I will miss you.
The worst feeling in the world
05/29/2012
We went to the lake to hang out with friends on Memorial Day 2012. Everyone was having a great time. The water was great, the sun was nice and the time with friends great too. At one point Elizabeth ran up to me and said she had sand in her mouth. So we stepped behind where I had been sitting to rinse her mouth out. Then I stepped back in front of the chair and looked for Ella. I could not find her. I walked up and down the beach and then had Elizabeth look too. At that point I told the other moms and they looked too. None of us could find her. I went to the bathrooms and looked and called her name. No answer. My stomach was sick. I could not find my baby and I was very scared. I went to the concession stand and asked who could help. She pointed me to the life guards. They got on the speaker right away and called everyone out of the lake and gave instructions on how to look for a missing child in the water. I told them Ella's name and age and what her suit looked like. I almost started bawling right then but didn't. Then I hear my friends yelling.. .she is here... Tracy has her. Thank you God. The lifeguard needed to see Ella so Tracy brought her up. Then they asked me and Ella to a room and I asked Tracy to watch Elizabeth. Ella was so scared. As she was walking up with Tracy the thought going through my head was be calm Joan, don't scare her more. After we talked to the life guard she said we would have to leave. I guess that is standard. They also had called the sheriff and called them back to let them know the all clear but they still came. We were packing up by then and we didn't have to talk to them or the firefighters that came too. Ella told me she couldn't find me and the only time I was away from my spot was when I was helping Elizabeth. I bet Ella walked the other way around the pond/lake and I went the opposite. She was coming from the total opposite side of the lake (it is a small man-made one at Lake Elmo Park reserve) with a young woman I guess. Ella said she was crying looking for me and scared she couldn't find me and this person came up to help her and they went together to another person and they must have walked her around the beach. I think she was already back to Tracy when the loud speaker call went out. It was only about 15 minutes all told but it was the worst 15 minutes ever. To get time to talk to Ella, I decided to let Elizabeth play at the playground for alittle bit. One other friend was there too. Ella and I sat in the shade and told each other how scared we were and how we hope it never happens again. Ella even saw me crying... I was so sad and still am, that my little girl was so scared. but, Ella had a great idea... she thinks parents and kids should have radio controls so we can always find each other. I agree sweet heart and I am so very sorry this happened. Thank you for being so smart to find someone to help you.
Before this happened we were having a great weekend. Normally I would have posted the pictures but I just don't feel right doing that and not posting about this event. I am going to keep this post in a draft form because this is private family stuff.
We went to the lake to hang out with friends on Memorial Day 2012. Everyone was having a great time. The water was great, the sun was nice and the time with friends great too. At one point Elizabeth ran up to me and said she had sand in her mouth. So we stepped behind where I had been sitting to rinse her mouth out. Then I stepped back in front of the chair and looked for Ella. I could not find her. I walked up and down the beach and then had Elizabeth look too. At that point I told the other moms and they looked too. None of us could find her. I went to the bathrooms and looked and called her name. No answer. My stomach was sick. I could not find my baby and I was very scared. I went to the concession stand and asked who could help. She pointed me to the life guards. They got on the speaker right away and called everyone out of the lake and gave instructions on how to look for a missing child in the water. I told them Ella's name and age and what her suit looked like. I almost started bawling right then but didn't. Then I hear my friends yelling.. .she is here... Tracy has her. Thank you God. The lifeguard needed to see Ella so Tracy brought her up. Then they asked me and Ella to a room and I asked Tracy to watch Elizabeth. Ella was so scared. As she was walking up with Tracy the thought going through my head was be calm Joan, don't scare her more. After we talked to the life guard she said we would have to leave. I guess that is standard. They also had called the sheriff and called them back to let them know the all clear but they still came. We were packing up by then and we didn't have to talk to them or the firefighters that came too. Ella told me she couldn't find me and the only time I was away from my spot was when I was helping Elizabeth. I bet Ella walked the other way around the pond/lake and I went the opposite. She was coming from the total opposite side of the lake (it is a small man-made one at Lake Elmo Park reserve) with a young woman I guess. Ella said she was crying looking for me and scared she couldn't find me and this person came up to help her and they went together to another person and they must have walked her around the beach. I think she was already back to Tracy when the loud speaker call went out. It was only about 15 minutes all told but it was the worst 15 minutes ever. To get time to talk to Ella, I decided to let Elizabeth play at the playground for alittle bit. One other friend was there too. Ella and I sat in the shade and told each other how scared we were and how we hope it never happens again. Ella even saw me crying... I was so sad and still am, that my little girl was so scared. but, Ella had a great idea... she thinks parents and kids should have radio controls so we can always find each other. I agree sweet heart and I am so very sorry this happened. Thank you for being so smart to find someone to help you.
Before this happened we were having a great weekend. Normally I would have posted the pictures but I just don't feel right doing that and not posting about this event. I am going to keep this post in a draft form because this is private family stuff.
Mother's Day
05/04/2012
Yesterday was a Mother's Day that had highs and lows.
Woke to Ella not being able to find where she hid my present from her. I helped her find it. It was a container with her favorite treats in it for me. What a sweetheart - warmed my heart.
Elizabeth gave me a card that made me almost cry. It's a keeper for sure.
We met the family at mass with Dad and had a good time hanging out.
Then we went to National Cemetary. Elizabeth and Ella have been asking to see where my Mom is buried and they asked again on Sunday, so we went there after church. It was a nice moment but of course I cried. I also explained that I almost always cry when I go to see my Mom. Elizabeth asked if she could sit on the headstone because that will feel like sitting in Grandma's lap. Ella gave the headstone a hug too. The sweetness of children. We had some nice discussions while there as well.
On the way home, we stopped and got new flowers to plant in our yard and hang from hanging baskets.
Then we went to a late lunch and got a few groceries and filled up the car with gas.
I tried to take a nap while they watched a little TV but it didn't work out. I think our visit to the cemetary brought out alot of stuff for my girls. Elizabeth came down to the living room and looked so sad. So we talked about the Moms she is missing on this special day and we hugged each other.
Then that night while we were watching Survivor, Ella got sad because the Aisan woman was voted out. She said she looked like her birth mom. She also was sad because she missed her other Moms too. We talked more about missing Moms and how that feeling is ok even though there is nothing we can do to change it. Kind of like me missing my Mom. Ella replied But it is different Mom, you weren't adopted. So, the feelings are bubbling up for us all.
Elizabeth and Ella - I love you and I will always be here for you to talk to about anything and everything.
Mom - I miss you so much. Like the girls said yesterday - I wish you were still with us. Love you Mom!
Yesterday was a Mother's Day that had highs and lows.
Woke to Ella not being able to find where she hid my present from her. I helped her find it. It was a container with her favorite treats in it for me. What a sweetheart - warmed my heart.
Elizabeth gave me a card that made me almost cry. It's a keeper for sure.
We met the family at mass with Dad and had a good time hanging out.
Then we went to National Cemetary. Elizabeth and Ella have been asking to see where my Mom is buried and they asked again on Sunday, so we went there after church. It was a nice moment but of course I cried. I also explained that I almost always cry when I go to see my Mom. Elizabeth asked if she could sit on the headstone because that will feel like sitting in Grandma's lap. Ella gave the headstone a hug too. The sweetness of children. We had some nice discussions while there as well.
On the way home, we stopped and got new flowers to plant in our yard and hang from hanging baskets.
Then we went to a late lunch and got a few groceries and filled up the car with gas.
I tried to take a nap while they watched a little TV but it didn't work out. I think our visit to the cemetary brought out alot of stuff for my girls. Elizabeth came down to the living room and looked so sad. So we talked about the Moms she is missing on this special day and we hugged each other.
Then that night while we were watching Survivor, Ella got sad because the Aisan woman was voted out. She said she looked like her birth mom. She also was sad because she missed her other Moms too. We talked more about missing Moms and how that feeling is ok even though there is nothing we can do to change it. Kind of like me missing my Mom. Ella replied But it is different Mom, you weren't adopted. So, the feelings are bubbling up for us all.
Elizabeth and Ella - I love you and I will always be here for you to talk to about anything and everything.
Mom - I miss you so much. Like the girls said yesterday - I wish you were still with us. Love you Mom!
Melancholy
07/28/2011
I am feeling a little sad today. A better word is melancholy. I have been reading about a Mom who is in China adopting her youngest with her oldest son with her. Her new daughter is really sad and scared. Today in the post, the Mom said her daughter is making baby steps to feeling safe and that she can't wait to hear her sweet little voice for the first time. This is day 4 but I was humbled by this Mom's ability to wait. The grace in that made me wish I had some of that strength when I adopted Ella. Ella's grief was hard for me to handle at times. Thankfully Joanne was there to help me and sometimes Ella liked Joanne more than me and that made me sad too. I wish I had remembered that it was not about me more often and that I had the grace to let Ella know she could be who she was and I would love her anyway. I know I did the best I could for Ella and I still do that for my girls, but wish I had dug deeper when it got really hard. And that makes me sad. And I wonder what memories sweet Ella has. Last night she told me that when I tell the story about her running away from me when she first saw me embarrasses her. I thought it was a cute funny moment but right now it bothers Ella. So I will wait to mention it again until she feels better able to hear it. I love you Ella.
I am feeling a little sad today. A better word is melancholy. I have been reading about a Mom who is in China adopting her youngest with her oldest son with her. Her new daughter is really sad and scared. Today in the post, the Mom said her daughter is making baby steps to feeling safe and that she can't wait to hear her sweet little voice for the first time. This is day 4 but I was humbled by this Mom's ability to wait. The grace in that made me wish I had some of that strength when I adopted Ella. Ella's grief was hard for me to handle at times. Thankfully Joanne was there to help me and sometimes Ella liked Joanne more than me and that made me sad too. I wish I had remembered that it was not about me more often and that I had the grace to let Ella know she could be who she was and I would love her anyway. I know I did the best I could for Ella and I still do that for my girls, but wish I had dug deeper when it got really hard. And that makes me sad. And I wonder what memories sweet Ella has. Last night she told me that when I tell the story about her running away from me when she first saw me embarrasses her. I thought it was a cute funny moment but right now it bothers Ella. So I will wait to mention it again until she feels better able to hear it. I love you Ella.
Nicholas.
12/9/2010
Elizabeth told me an interesting update regarding a boy at school.
Last night we skipped Faith Formation. We needed some fun family time. So we went out to eat at Rosedale, stopped at the Hello Kitty store for an early Xmas present (new water bottles for school use) and then home. We did homework and then baths. During bath time Elizabeth told me she is in love. She said “I am still in love with Nicholas Mom” And then told me and Ella that we couldn’t tell Uncle because he would tease Elizabeth. So – this post will be in a draft form until right before I create the book version.
Elizabeth went on to tell me that Nicholas said he was going to marry her and that she was the last one he asked so it will be her. I asked her how many girls Nicholas is talking to and she named 3 of her friends but then said he told her she was the last. But he also said he had a crush on a teenager. At least he is honest. LOL Nicholas is a cutie. He just had surgery for his cleft lip – a bone graft.
It was a nice moment sharing with Elizabeth. I hope she always tells me about the boys she loves.
Elizabeth told me an interesting update regarding a boy at school.
Last night we skipped Faith Formation. We needed some fun family time. So we went out to eat at Rosedale, stopped at the Hello Kitty store for an early Xmas present (new water bottles for school use) and then home. We did homework and then baths. During bath time Elizabeth told me she is in love. She said “I am still in love with Nicholas Mom” And then told me and Ella that we couldn’t tell Uncle because he would tease Elizabeth. So – this post will be in a draft form until right before I create the book version.
Elizabeth went on to tell me that Nicholas said he was going to marry her and that she was the last one he asked so it will be her. I asked her how many girls Nicholas is talking to and she named 3 of her friends but then said he told her she was the last. But he also said he had a crush on a teenager. At least he is honest. LOL Nicholas is a cutie. He just had surgery for his cleft lip – a bone graft.
It was a nice moment sharing with Elizabeth. I hope she always tells me about the boys she loves.
Conversations with Ella
09/10/2010
I promised Ella I would not tell anyone what she said. So, this post will stay in draft form until right before I create the book for the girls. I hope that doesn't make you mad Ella this was just too cute not to write down and my old brain will forget.
Last night we were doing errands while Elizabeth was at gymnastics.
Ella said she wanted to tell me something but I can't tell anyone .
Ok.
I have a boyfriend at school Mom.
Really? What's his name?
I don't remember. But sometimes we hold hands.
Wow, that's nice having a friend to hold hands with.
Is it ok I call him my boyfriend Mom?
Sure - that's ok. Is he in your class?
yes he is... don't tell anyone ok Mom.
I promise I won't say a word.
I promised Ella I would not tell anyone what she said. So, this post will stay in draft form until right before I create the book for the girls. I hope that doesn't make you mad Ella this was just too cute not to write down and my old brain will forget.
Last night we were doing errands while Elizabeth was at gymnastics.
Ella said she wanted to tell me something but I can't tell anyone .
Ok.
I have a boyfriend at school Mom.
Really? What's his name?
I don't remember. But sometimes we hold hands.
Wow, that's nice having a friend to hold hands with.
Is it ok I call him my boyfriend Mom?
Sure - that's ok. Is he in your class?
yes he is... don't tell anyone ok Mom.
I promise I won't say a word.
I am so sorry Girls
10/29/09
This morning Mom was not the best she could be. I really have no excuse for my comments and reactions. I am the adult and should behave better. I am really sorry I said I am done being your mom. I know you both were not listening and you both were sassing me and you both pushed all my buttons... I should never have said that. What I said was since you two don't want to listen you must not want me to be your mom so I'll stop for now. I NEVER Meant it and I am so very sorry. When you read this update I need you to know that I am human too. I make mistakes and that was a big one. I will love you forever and be your Mom even when you don't want me to. That is what I should have said. All I can say in my defense is work has been very stressful, I have been fighting a wicked cold/virus and have no energy to get anything done. I am tired of driving all over the place and tired of not being at home and I am stressed out about my bills and all the things that need to be fixed in the house. But the most important thing I do is take care of you two and I fear I am not doing the best I can for you two. I promise to make sure to do the best I can every day for you both. I love you Elizabeth. I love you Ella. Mom makes mistakes too and I hope you forgive me and that I didn't damage you forever. I still remember the time Dad said he wished he had died instead of Mom and how hard that was to hear. I know now that he meant it was so hard being the parent and that he missed his wife but it scared me. I hope I didn't just do the same to you.
This morning Mom was not the best she could be. I really have no excuse for my comments and reactions. I am the adult and should behave better. I am really sorry I said I am done being your mom. I know you both were not listening and you both were sassing me and you both pushed all my buttons... I should never have said that. What I said was since you two don't want to listen you must not want me to be your mom so I'll stop for now. I NEVER Meant it and I am so very sorry. When you read this update I need you to know that I am human too. I make mistakes and that was a big one. I will love you forever and be your Mom even when you don't want me to. That is what I should have said. All I can say in my defense is work has been very stressful, I have been fighting a wicked cold/virus and have no energy to get anything done. I am tired of driving all over the place and tired of not being at home and I am stressed out about my bills and all the things that need to be fixed in the house. But the most important thing I do is take care of you two and I fear I am not doing the best I can for you two. I promise to make sure to do the best I can every day for you both. I love you Elizabeth. I love you Ella. Mom makes mistakes too and I hope you forgive me and that I didn't damage you forever. I still remember the time Dad said he wished he had died instead of Mom and how hard that was to hear. I know now that he meant it was so hard being the parent and that he missed his wife but it scared me. I hope I didn't just do the same to you.
Private - was not published on the blog.
9/12/12
Don't worry girls... I did not publish this one. But, I had to put it down for us to enjoy later.
Elizabeth - you are in the middle of little girl and young adult. I guess they call this tween years. The night before last I went in to check you while you were sleeping. There was a new smell in your room. You had gymnastics and we came home late with no time to shower before bed. You did shower the next morning but there was body odor. That was a first. So, when we went shopping for the Wolf Ridge retreat, you asked for deoderant. You also have been asking about shaving your legs as well as looking for underarm hair. So, your body is changing. Your emotions are too and you are doing an amazing job handling it all.
Anyway, last night we had a lesson in using deoderant. I showed you with the lid on and you practiced. Then you tried it with the real stuff and you said it felt good. Ella was in the shower when we were doing that.
When you got out Ella you wanted to try too. So, Elizabeth showed you as I showed her. You thought it tickled - alot. :-)
I love how you two are changing and growing and am so blessed to be your mom.
Don't worry girls... I did not publish this one. But, I had to put it down for us to enjoy later.
Elizabeth - you are in the middle of little girl and young adult. I guess they call this tween years. The night before last I went in to check you while you were sleeping. There was a new smell in your room. You had gymnastics and we came home late with no time to shower before bed. You did shower the next morning but there was body odor. That was a first. So, when we went shopping for the Wolf Ridge retreat, you asked for deoderant. You also have been asking about shaving your legs as well as looking for underarm hair. So, your body is changing. Your emotions are too and you are doing an amazing job handling it all.
Anyway, last night we had a lesson in using deoderant. I showed you with the lid on and you practiced. Then you tried it with the real stuff and you said it felt good. Ella was in the shower when we were doing that.
When you got out Ella you wanted to try too. So, Elizabeth showed you as I showed her. You thought it tickled - alot. :-)
I love how you two are changing and growing and am so blessed to be your mom.
Decision made
Today is Elizabeth's last day for Team gymnastics.
The discussion to leave started last fall. I asked her to push through to the last hurdle so she could compete as she has worked so hard up to that point. I told her we would revisit the decision after she had competed. I was so proud watching her compete and be part of a team and she seemed to like doing it. At times she even said she liked it and told her young friends that it was a good path. So I was a bit surprised when she said she didn't want to compete, didn't want to be on team and wanted to take a break.
The discussion to leave started last fall. I asked her to push through to the last hurdle so she could compete as she has worked so hard up to that point. I told her we would revisit the decision after she had competed. I was so proud watching her compete and be part of a team and she seemed to like doing it. At times she even said she liked it and told her young friends that it was a good path. So I was a bit surprised when she said she didn't want to compete, didn't want to be on team and wanted to take a break.
Two steps to mark the change to independance
Saturday the girls rode home from DQ alone
Then they stayed home alone while I ran errands
Turns out I took too long to update the blog. This was from 2013 but the pics and text are now gone. Shit.
Then they stayed home alone while I ran errands
Turns out I took too long to update the blog. This was from 2013 but the pics and text are now gone. Shit.
Whew
I wasn't sure if I could get back in here but I found my password Whew.
Tomorrow is Thanksgiving 2017.
Dad loved Thanksgiving.
I remember when we were kids (after Mom had passed), we were invited to join with family for the holiday. I remember having dinners at Aunt Alice's and Uncle Gary's. We also were at Aunt Joanne's and Uncle Jerry's But, I don't think Dad started really loving Thanksgiving until he was the chief cook. He would cook the turkey early and then put it in a crock pot to warm it up on Thanksgiving. I helped Dad on the day of the event so you would think I would have mad skills but nope. My brothers and their wives have been great hosts over the years.
Tomorrow we are going to Jere and Lindsay's for the holiday. Please tell me how Jeremy can be old enough to do that. LOL Dad would have loved going to his Grandkids homes for a Holiday I expect Mom would have too but I have no memories of her and Thanksgiving. That makes sense as I was 8 when she passed away. I was 54 when Dad passed away. Lots of memories between 8 and 54 - thank you Dad. Plus, I don't feel 54 nor do I feel 58. I do have a couple memories of Mom and Christmas though. I wish I had memories of Mom at the farm with the family. Loved the farm. I stayed pretty close to Grandma though. We had lots of fun at the farm as well as when Grandpa and Grandma moved into town.
Where did we celebrate Thanksgiving November 1968? Mom had passed away August 1968. Maybe at Grandma and Grandpa Polman, Maybe at Alice and Gary's, Maybe at Joanne and Jerry's. I just don't recall. I do remember Xmas 1968 though. I remember having a great winter hat with white fur and pom poms on long strings. I also remember recording XMas songs on a reel to reel machine to send to an uncle in Vietnam. It could have been Uncle Jere or Uncle Steve. I think Aunt Joanne brought Kevin, Jim and I to Grandma and Grandpas that Xmas. I remember going to Midnight mass and wondering when Dad would get there. I remember worrying about Dad. It was only 5 months since Mom had passed away so it was hard to be apart from my Dad.
Its funny how feelings change. I was missing Dad a few hours ago and now I am smiling with the memories. Thank you Dad for what you did for me. You created traditions and I knew I was ok when I saw you in the room. Hope your Thanksgiving is Grand. I do thank you too Mom. but you have been gone so long and I just don't remember you as well I as remember Dad. But I do remember Love. You loved us. That I know.
Tomorrow is Thanksgiving 2017.
Dad loved Thanksgiving.
I remember when we were kids (after Mom had passed), we were invited to join with family for the holiday. I remember having dinners at Aunt Alice's and Uncle Gary's. We also were at Aunt Joanne's and Uncle Jerry's But, I don't think Dad started really loving Thanksgiving until he was the chief cook. He would cook the turkey early and then put it in a crock pot to warm it up on Thanksgiving. I helped Dad on the day of the event so you would think I would have mad skills but nope. My brothers and their wives have been great hosts over the years.
Tomorrow we are going to Jere and Lindsay's for the holiday. Please tell me how Jeremy can be old enough to do that. LOL Dad would have loved going to his Grandkids homes for a Holiday I expect Mom would have too but I have no memories of her and Thanksgiving. That makes sense as I was 8 when she passed away. I was 54 when Dad passed away. Lots of memories between 8 and 54 - thank you Dad. Plus, I don't feel 54 nor do I feel 58. I do have a couple memories of Mom and Christmas though. I wish I had memories of Mom at the farm with the family. Loved the farm. I stayed pretty close to Grandma though. We had lots of fun at the farm as well as when Grandpa and Grandma moved into town.
Where did we celebrate Thanksgiving November 1968? Mom had passed away August 1968. Maybe at Grandma and Grandpa Polman, Maybe at Alice and Gary's, Maybe at Joanne and Jerry's. I just don't recall. I do remember Xmas 1968 though. I remember having a great winter hat with white fur and pom poms on long strings. I also remember recording XMas songs on a reel to reel machine to send to an uncle in Vietnam. It could have been Uncle Jere or Uncle Steve. I think Aunt Joanne brought Kevin, Jim and I to Grandma and Grandpas that Xmas. I remember going to Midnight mass and wondering when Dad would get there. I remember worrying about Dad. It was only 5 months since Mom had passed away so it was hard to be apart from my Dad.
Its funny how feelings change. I was missing Dad a few hours ago and now I am smiling with the memories. Thank you Dad for what you did for me. You created traditions and I knew I was ok when I saw you in the room. Hope your Thanksgiving is Grand. I do thank you too Mom. but you have been gone so long and I just don't remember you as well I as remember Dad. But I do remember Love. You loved us. That I know.
Wednesday, March 8, 2017
Can I just say the school year has been busy?
I think I need to be honest and say with work and school I don't remember to post on the blog anymore.
Just have to say how proud I am of my girls.
Elizabeth is doing such a great job at De as a freshman. She made the honor roll first semester and is looking like the same path will take place the second semester. She signed up for classes for next year and followed her Math teacher's advice. She is taking two math classes next year. She works really hard on her homework and I have to remind myself to not say anything when she has music playing or a show on her phone at the same time. If I recall correctly, I may have done the same when I was her age. Elizabeth is meeting so many great kids and developing a strong core group of kids as her BFFs. This school is the perfect one for Elizabeth and I love seeing the young adult forming. Enjoy your time there Elizabeth and continue to soar. The pic below was from the Freshman team building type of event I believe.
Just have to say how proud I am of my girls.
Elizabeth is doing such a great job at De as a freshman. She made the honor roll first semester and is looking like the same path will take place the second semester. She signed up for classes for next year and followed her Math teacher's advice. She is taking two math classes next year. She works really hard on her homework and I have to remind myself to not say anything when she has music playing or a show on her phone at the same time. If I recall correctly, I may have done the same when I was her age. Elizabeth is meeting so many great kids and developing a strong core group of kids as her BFFs. This school is the perfect one for Elizabeth and I love seeing the young adult forming. Enjoy your time there Elizabeth and continue to soar. The pic below was from the Freshman team building type of event I believe.
With Chinese Class on a field trip in 2017
End of Football Cheer Oct 2016
Sept 1, 2016 Cheer!
Ella is also doing great. She was anxious about Middle School but its working out totally fine. She earned an award this year called the Purple Cow. Her school gives them out every month to one or two kids that show behavior that makes them stand out of the field, kind of like a purple cow would. When Mr Z (Principal) announce her name, everyone cheered. They all know Ella as she is one of the kindest kids around that makes sure to check in on everyone - students and teachers. Thank you Grandma Jo for coming in for this.
November 2016
Ella and her classmates had a field trip in the Fall and she was not sure she wanted to go but ended up having the time of her life. She would go back again if she could.
Early morning arrival for the lux bus to Wolf Ridge.
Thank you Mrs Rogers for putting Ella in your group. She really gained alot from this trip.
Science class experiment time.
Advent Calendar for Religion class. Each white piece of paper had an idea for how to help people in the Advent time. The only thing I did was paint the wood sticks green.
Another win for Ella is how she is working through her anxiousness and becoming more true to herself. Just yesterday they had a round table discussion about depression and she was a little worried kids at her table would look right at her when the Macalester students were talking about depression and brain growth. Then Ella did an impromptu discussion about how to talk to someone with depression that is helpful to them. Proud of you kiddo.
We have also done some fun things as a family this year
In October my nephew Lee married Michelle and I am so happy for him. Michelle is a wonderful partner for Lee and they brought two more great nephews to the family. Welcome to the family Michelle, Dylan and Dalton! Thank you for asking Elizabeth and I to do the readings during your service. We were so happy to take part of your ceremony.
Halloween. JunFen and Muriel came with too. Tracy (Muriel's mom) and I stayed back and handed out candy and had some beers. :-)
We got together with our friends around the holidays. Always fun!
In November the girls and I went to an adoption event held at the Vikings training facility. Normally we don't go to these but this year it worked out.
The holiday tree in the Vikings Locker Room.
Bob Lurtzema showing the girls one of his Super Bowl rings the runners up got.
A very generous donor gave each of the kids a new bike. Ella had outgrown her other one so it was a blessing for us. Here is her bike - totally her style. It is one speed so we will see how it goes but she loves it. Elizabeth put her's together and then donated it to St Marks for their Gala. Her 5 speed bike was new last year.
We got together with family in December. This is Jim and Joyce. Sadly Aunt Joyce lost her battle with cancer (Cancer Sucks) a few months later. This post is dedicate to Auntie. She loved catching up with family on Facebook and other social media and I know she read this blog. I will miss you forever Joyce and am thankful you are no longer suffering. Jim was an amazing husband and I am so glad Joyce met him and they were great partners all these years. I still remember their wedding dance when I was 19. Love to my cousins Lynn, Laurie and Lyn.
Thank you to Tom and Lori. They gave us their Viking season tickets for one game. Elizabeth brought her friend Madison and we had a great time. Too bad it was frigid cold outside and the Vikings didn't win but the time spent there was priceless. Thank you again Tom!
Winter Carnival Feb 2017. My niece in law Laura asked if anyone wanted to join her and Cody and the girls and I along with Doreen and Alissa joined up. Thank you Laura - great idea.
Niece Alissa and Great Nephew Cody
Elizabeth sliding down the hill. Look at that hair. She is holding her hat because it had starting to fly off her head. She didn't want to lose her Viking Stocking Cap.
Ella and Laura helping Cody to skate. Such a pretty day and we had so much fun.
After lunch Mr Cody wanted to sit with me. I was honored to oblige.
Tuesday, August 23, 2016
Movie night at school
Last night was great.
St Marks had a back to school/ play ground/ movie night that started at 6.
We picked up E at Delasalle and after she changed we headed over.
At first Ella was not comfortable approaching her friends from last year. And she didn't want the food that was for sale right away. Elizabeth and I did though - Corn dogs and Tom Thumb mini donuts...mmm good. Ella did eat later though.
Ella hung out with Hailey and I could she was getting more comfortable. Then another friend showed and Ella hung back - so did the other friend. But, then after awhile Ella and Hailey found some other kids to play with and Elizabeth was hanging with the now 8th graders and enjoying those kids. I got to visit with some parents and chatted with Mary when she walked by with the dogs. And later Ella went back to A to try again and they both chatted and discussed getting together. ;-)
It was a great night weather wise and turns out a great night socially too.
We also got to see the update to the cafeteria. Mr Z contracted with an artist/friend to redo the walls in the cafeteria. If we had more vacation time we could volunteer to help paint the figures. What we saw looked great and I can't wait to see it all done.
I had an interesting conversation with Mr Z (Principal of the school). He told me that Ella told him she was probably going to be a trouble maker this school year. Thankfully he kept a straight face and talked it over with her. She was thinking her worries about being in middle school were going to make her change into a trouble maker and Mr Z was able to refocus her. I hope that Ella took that message in. She also chatted with Mrs W (middle school English teacher) and she also reassured her that it will be ok. Ella has been very anxious about this change but I keep telling her she will be ok and within a week she will wonder why she worried. Soon sweet girl you will believe you can handle the tough stuff and come out shining.
The only bummer was when we found out Miss Groshens is not coming back. She was Ella's first teacher at St Marks in 3rd grade and was such a gem. I have not heard yet where she is going but I know she will continue to do well. We will miss you Miss Groshens and I thank you again for being the person Ella needed after her tough year in 2nd grade at Yinghua.
Happy school year.
St Marks had a back to school/ play ground/ movie night that started at 6.
We picked up E at Delasalle and after she changed we headed over.
At first Ella was not comfortable approaching her friends from last year. And she didn't want the food that was for sale right away. Elizabeth and I did though - Corn dogs and Tom Thumb mini donuts...mmm good. Ella did eat later though.
Ella hung out with Hailey and I could she was getting more comfortable. Then another friend showed and Ella hung back - so did the other friend. But, then after awhile Ella and Hailey found some other kids to play with and Elizabeth was hanging with the now 8th graders and enjoying those kids. I got to visit with some parents and chatted with Mary when she walked by with the dogs. And later Ella went back to A to try again and they both chatted and discussed getting together. ;-)
It was a great night weather wise and turns out a great night socially too.
We also got to see the update to the cafeteria. Mr Z contracted with an artist/friend to redo the walls in the cafeteria. If we had more vacation time we could volunteer to help paint the figures. What we saw looked great and I can't wait to see it all done.
I had an interesting conversation with Mr Z (Principal of the school). He told me that Ella told him she was probably going to be a trouble maker this school year. Thankfully he kept a straight face and talked it over with her. She was thinking her worries about being in middle school were going to make her change into a trouble maker and Mr Z was able to refocus her. I hope that Ella took that message in. She also chatted with Mrs W (middle school English teacher) and she also reassured her that it will be ok. Ella has been very anxious about this change but I keep telling her she will be ok and within a week she will wonder why she worried. Soon sweet girl you will believe you can handle the tough stuff and come out shining.
The only bummer was when we found out Miss Groshens is not coming back. She was Ella's first teacher at St Marks in 3rd grade and was such a gem. I have not heard yet where she is going but I know she will continue to do well. We will miss you Miss Groshens and I thank you again for being the person Ella needed after her tough year in 2nd grade at Yinghua.
Happy school year.
Monday, August 22, 2016
HighSchool. Wow.
Today was Day 1 of being a Freshman in High School For Elizabeth.
Wasn't it just PreK not too long ago?
I am very proud of you E and can't wait to watch you conquer HS just like you did PreK and Gradeschool.
PreK
Kinder
Kinder too - One of the kids in this pic is at the same HS now too.
Picking out her backpack for HS
This morning at 7:25 am - "I am smiling Mom, this is my tired smile"
p.s. I was told I could not post to Facebook so this is my way around that. :-)
I did post this pic to FB today. I figured it was ok to include Grandpa because today it has been 3 years since we said goodbye. Thank you for watching over E Dad.
Update 8/24/16. Elizabeth is loving DeLaSalle and is really glad to be back with her BFF. On my work computer this pic just rolled by. This is Elizabeth and JunFen in 1st Grade. They both left Yinghua after 5th grade and went to different schools. So they are back together again
Thursday, August 18, 2016
Wow
I guess we have been busy. No updates since May. I will try to catch up soon.
We have much to show.
We did a super fun family vacation to SD and Yellowstone. So much beauty and such a great trip.
We also finalized where Elizabeth is going to HighSchool. Turns out she got her first choice and thank you to all the powers out there that I qualified for some great financial aid.
We are also trying to figure out how to improve the quality of sleep for Ella. One Step at a time. We have talked with her Cleft team and had an appt with a new ENT (our old one retired) and they both suggested a sleep study. That was done 8/16 and Ella was a champ. Turns out she doesn't have sleep apnea and all the readings were in the normal range -thankfully. Next I am checking on nutrition such as vitamins and minerals. We are also going to check allergies but don't mention that to Ella - the thought of needles is creeping her out. Any ideas out there please share.
Today was a cool day as a mom.
I dropped Elizabeth at DeLaSalle for her Freshman Orientation today. She was in a great mood and we had fun driving there together. But, I teared up a bit after I dropped her off and that surprised me. I made sure to drive away before she saw it and didn't let any other parents see so her Freshman Cred is good still. Elizabeth is also doing Sideline Cheer so that will be fun watching her this Fall at the Football games. I expect on the official Day 1 I may cry more while also wondering where the time went. I am also not allowed to put pictures on social media of either event. :-) Hope the day went well Elizabeth.
Ella also did a big hurdle today. The girls have been going to Mary and Mike's and letting Baxter and KC out in the afternoons so the pups can "relieve" themselves. This week with cheer practice and HS starting, Ella is on her own. I drove her Monday and Tuesday as I had to bring E to De but today Ella rode her bike all the way there and back. She was nervous crossing a busy street by our house and we had a plan but when she called from Mary and Mike's I could hear it in her voice that she was so proud she did it. This will help her self confidence so much! Great job Ella.
8/17/1968 - miss you everyday Mom.
We have much to show.
We did a super fun family vacation to SD and Yellowstone. So much beauty and such a great trip.
We also finalized where Elizabeth is going to HighSchool. Turns out she got her first choice and thank you to all the powers out there that I qualified for some great financial aid.
We are also trying to figure out how to improve the quality of sleep for Ella. One Step at a time. We have talked with her Cleft team and had an appt with a new ENT (our old one retired) and they both suggested a sleep study. That was done 8/16 and Ella was a champ. Turns out she doesn't have sleep apnea and all the readings were in the normal range -thankfully. Next I am checking on nutrition such as vitamins and minerals. We are also going to check allergies but don't mention that to Ella - the thought of needles is creeping her out. Any ideas out there please share.
Today was a cool day as a mom.
I dropped Elizabeth at DeLaSalle for her Freshman Orientation today. She was in a great mood and we had fun driving there together. But, I teared up a bit after I dropped her off and that surprised me. I made sure to drive away before she saw it and didn't let any other parents see so her Freshman Cred is good still. Elizabeth is also doing Sideline Cheer so that will be fun watching her this Fall at the Football games. I expect on the official Day 1 I may cry more while also wondering where the time went. I am also not allowed to put pictures on social media of either event. :-) Hope the day went well Elizabeth.
Ella also did a big hurdle today. The girls have been going to Mary and Mike's and letting Baxter and KC out in the afternoons so the pups can "relieve" themselves. This week with cheer practice and HS starting, Ella is on her own. I drove her Monday and Tuesday as I had to bring E to De but today Ella rode her bike all the way there and back. She was nervous crossing a busy street by our house and we had a plan but when she called from Mary and Mike's I could hear it in her voice that she was so proud she did it. This will help her self confidence so much! Great job Ella.
8/17/1968 - miss you everyday Mom.
Monday, May 9, 2016
To interfere or not
We have had an ongoing off and on issue I have bugging me.
Should I call the school now or wait until the school year is done is the question I have been working on. Elizabeth wants me to wait and Ella has just started noticing the issue.
And I could very well be very sensitive to this issue due to the bullying Ella received at her prior school.
My kids are not getting bullied but they are not totally included. Ella is starting to say it is because she is Asian. I don't think that is it but I do think there is a problem. I wonder if its more because most of each of the girls' classes started together as Kinders and have grown up together. But Elizabeth tells me the boys are great at including new boys in her class. Its the girls that don't. While I realize that is normal girl shit, I am tired of seeing my kids standing on the playground before school starts with no one to talk to.
I want to storm in and make it better but I know I can't. I know that will make it worse and really won't get at the core of the problem.
Is this because they each started at this school after a few years had passed or would the issue still be there if they had started in Kinder? I think Elizabeth's group of girls are generally clicky and most are kind to Elizabeth but some are not. Elizabeth does have friends at school but no one calls on the weekends and no one asks her to come over. She was getting those types of friends at Ramsey and I hope when she gets to Highschool in the Fall that she will get those again.
Ella can go up to the kids at recess and ask to play with them and they say sure, come join us. But they don't come up to her the next time to ask her if she would like to play. Ella has to do most of the work and she is starting to question it. She is feeling left out and I have talked to her teacher but she isn't seeing it when she watches the kids. Right now Ella is feeling very sensitive to social situations but she is feeling it. She doesn't want to sit by the girls at lunch because they talk about stuff Ella isn't interested in. These kids are nice but most are very big into the athletic options at school and that is just not something Ella is interested in.
Educationally my girls are getting a top notch experience. But socially its not wonderful.
I really want to call the administration and pitch a fit but I will request a meeting with them when school is done. My concerns are for my kids but also for the school. Are they missing signs of exclusion or God Forbid, prejudice? I am not sure how to make it better for my kids. I know Ella doesn't want to change schools and neither do I. I just wish she would be included without having to join a sports team.
I wish they had the same experience I did. I am still close to my best friend from grade school and am so blessed to have close friends from high school too that are still in my life. I also know this is making my kids stronger and more aware but I would like them to have fun without having to make it a huge deal all the time.
Should I call the school now or wait until the school year is done is the question I have been working on. Elizabeth wants me to wait and Ella has just started noticing the issue.
And I could very well be very sensitive to this issue due to the bullying Ella received at her prior school.
My kids are not getting bullied but they are not totally included. Ella is starting to say it is because she is Asian. I don't think that is it but I do think there is a problem. I wonder if its more because most of each of the girls' classes started together as Kinders and have grown up together. But Elizabeth tells me the boys are great at including new boys in her class. Its the girls that don't. While I realize that is normal girl shit, I am tired of seeing my kids standing on the playground before school starts with no one to talk to.
I want to storm in and make it better but I know I can't. I know that will make it worse and really won't get at the core of the problem.
Is this because they each started at this school after a few years had passed or would the issue still be there if they had started in Kinder? I think Elizabeth's group of girls are generally clicky and most are kind to Elizabeth but some are not. Elizabeth does have friends at school but no one calls on the weekends and no one asks her to come over. She was getting those types of friends at Ramsey and I hope when she gets to Highschool in the Fall that she will get those again.
Ella can go up to the kids at recess and ask to play with them and they say sure, come join us. But they don't come up to her the next time to ask her if she would like to play. Ella has to do most of the work and she is starting to question it. She is feeling left out and I have talked to her teacher but she isn't seeing it when she watches the kids. Right now Ella is feeling very sensitive to social situations but she is feeling it. She doesn't want to sit by the girls at lunch because they talk about stuff Ella isn't interested in. These kids are nice but most are very big into the athletic options at school and that is just not something Ella is interested in.
Educationally my girls are getting a top notch experience. But socially its not wonderful.
I really want to call the administration and pitch a fit but I will request a meeting with them when school is done. My concerns are for my kids but also for the school. Are they missing signs of exclusion or God Forbid, prejudice? I am not sure how to make it better for my kids. I know Ella doesn't want to change schools and neither do I. I just wish she would be included without having to join a sports team.
I wish they had the same experience I did. I am still close to my best friend from grade school and am so blessed to have close friends from high school too that are still in my life. I also know this is making my kids stronger and more aware but I would like them to have fun without having to make it a huge deal all the time.
Monday, May 2, 2016
Feeling a little overwhelmed
It has been a busy few weeks here with appointments and events.
I had my other cataract removed in April and am doing well but had to juggle that. Thank you to my brother Kevin for driving me there again.
I have also been saying yes too much to volunteer things. It just snuck up on me but I had many commitments with school and church in April and will try to do less going forward so we continue to focus on our family first before helping others. I have a couple that are ongoing and am thinking of stopping one next year. I am also on a committee to help plan the 8th Grade Grad party but that will be done soon as well. It will be a fun event for them, many parents helping out and all I really have to do is bring popcorn and candy and chaperon an hour or so. For my 8th Grade party, we were at T&C country club near the school for a dance. I don't think there was much dancing though and I think I had a crush on a boy and waited for him to ask me to dance - silly me.
Ella has had school patrol the last 3 weeks and while that is not much of a chore for me, its one that stresses her out. People don't listen to her while she is trying to keep them safe. That is her opinion on it. Mine is she is so focused on doing the right thing and following all the rules taught them, that she is worried too much about it. I am glad she is done.
We also had Ella's Birthday Party early in April. It was super fun with great kids but it added to the month of busy. I don't have the pictures on this computer but it was a fun event with a local party coordinator that comes to your house and helps the kids paint fun things and do beads. Ella choose painting a jewelry box and they all turned out great. Here are some photos from Crafted Art Parties FB page
April also marked the girls' school spring program. It was a fun event and thank you to Reenie, Mary and Mike and Joanne for watching with us. Its always fun to celebrate with DQ too. Normally Kevin and Doreen would be there too but Kevin was working out of town and Doreen and Alissa had work commitments too. They were with us in spirit. Mary and I had flashbacks of being at St Marks together for all the K-8 events and had a couple laugh attacks. It was fun.
Yesterday we went to the Twins game with Kevin, Doreen and most of their kids and grands... we were just missing one. We took the light rail there and back and then we all had dinner at Snuffy's for Elizabeth's birthday. She turns 14 tomorrow.
When we got home, I feel asleep watching TV with the girls and then had a hard time sleeping. Silly me.
But, I see the light at the end of the tunnel. May and early June is busy with appointments and end of school stuff but gymnastics will be done 5/31, skating will be done 5/23 and school will be done 6/9. Then its relaxing over the summer. Whew
I had my other cataract removed in April and am doing well but had to juggle that. Thank you to my brother Kevin for driving me there again.
I have also been saying yes too much to volunteer things. It just snuck up on me but I had many commitments with school and church in April and will try to do less going forward so we continue to focus on our family first before helping others. I have a couple that are ongoing and am thinking of stopping one next year. I am also on a committee to help plan the 8th Grade Grad party but that will be done soon as well. It will be a fun event for them, many parents helping out and all I really have to do is bring popcorn and candy and chaperon an hour or so. For my 8th Grade party, we were at T&C country club near the school for a dance. I don't think there was much dancing though and I think I had a crush on a boy and waited for him to ask me to dance - silly me.
Ella has had school patrol the last 3 weeks and while that is not much of a chore for me, its one that stresses her out. People don't listen to her while she is trying to keep them safe. That is her opinion on it. Mine is she is so focused on doing the right thing and following all the rules taught them, that she is worried too much about it. I am glad she is done.
March is Ella's Birthday and Elizabeth's Family Day so we celebrated those as a family.
April was Ella's party with her friends as well as other fun events for me - I spent time with friends doing a painting project that turned out great and meeting others for breakfast and drinks with another group.
Also in April was Elizabeth's Confirmation. That was a beautiful service and it was so nice that Joanne and Kevin could come on a Thursday at 7 pm and it was also raining.
Yesterday we went to the Twins game with Kevin, Doreen and most of their kids and grands... we were just missing one. We took the light rail there and back and then we all had dinner at Snuffy's for Elizabeth's birthday. She turns 14 tomorrow.
When we got home, I feel asleep watching TV with the girls and then had a hard time sleeping. Silly me.
But, I see the light at the end of the tunnel. May and early June is busy with appointments and end of school stuff but gymnastics will be done 5/31, skating will be done 5/23 and school will be done 6/9. Then its relaxing over the summer. Whew
Sunday, April 17, 2016
MVP
MVP - Most Valuable Player
That is what Elizabeth was awarded today at her gymnastics banquet.
What a very very nice moment for her.
Elizabeth's coach Ruth said many nice things about Elizabeth. I had a thought that I probably should have recorded it but I wanted to be in the moment instead of being the recorder. She said Elizabeth had great attitude and did the tough skills. She specifically said that Elizabeth's bar routine was the toughest with the highest level of skills.
When they were giving E her award, Ella turned and looked at me. Yup... I had a couple tears. Gymnastics has been a blessing and sometimes a curse. In hindsight I now see that E was not happy at the gym before Highland but I am so so happy that she is at a place that appreciates her and I really wish we had been there all along.
Elizabeth started at Highland many years ago but when Yinghua moved, getting to practice was a time constraint. Going to NE Mpls from DT St Paul to Highland St Paul was time consuming. At that time I worked until 5pm so it just didn't work.
I am a true believer of what happens is probably meant to happen so we learned lessons and had good times at the other gym too. I picked it because E has talents and it was a good place to grow in her talents and it was closer to Yinghua than Highland and we met many nice people there.
Elizabeth has decided she is not going to do gymnastics in Highshool and is looking at other sports. I love that there are options and teams that will continue to appreciate her. I have been a proud gymnastics mom and will be a proud volleyball mom or swim mom or circus mom. (Actually Ella has been at Circus Juvantis for a few months so I am already a proud circus mom)
Great Job Elizabeth. I can't wait to see what you pick next on your journey.
Love you.
That is what Elizabeth was awarded today at her gymnastics banquet.
What a very very nice moment for her.
Elizabeth's coach Ruth said many nice things about Elizabeth. I had a thought that I probably should have recorded it but I wanted to be in the moment instead of being the recorder. She said Elizabeth had great attitude and did the tough skills. She specifically said that Elizabeth's bar routine was the toughest with the highest level of skills.
When they were giving E her award, Ella turned and looked at me. Yup... I had a couple tears. Gymnastics has been a blessing and sometimes a curse. In hindsight I now see that E was not happy at the gym before Highland but I am so so happy that she is at a place that appreciates her and I really wish we had been there all along.
Elizabeth started at Highland many years ago but when Yinghua moved, getting to practice was a time constraint. Going to NE Mpls from DT St Paul to Highland St Paul was time consuming. At that time I worked until 5pm so it just didn't work.
I am a true believer of what happens is probably meant to happen so we learned lessons and had good times at the other gym too. I picked it because E has talents and it was a good place to grow in her talents and it was closer to Yinghua than Highland and we met many nice people there.
Elizabeth has decided she is not going to do gymnastics in Highshool and is looking at other sports. I love that there are options and teams that will continue to appreciate her. I have been a proud gymnastics mom and will be a proud volleyball mom or swim mom or circus mom. (Actually Ella has been at Circus Juvantis for a few months so I am already a proud circus mom)
Great Job Elizabeth. I can't wait to see what you pick next on your journey.
Love you.
