Saturday, May 1, 2010

Bittersweet

Its the night before Elizabeth receives her First Communion.  The house is ready for the after party and the clothes are ready for us to be all pretty.  I can't wait to see Elizabeth in her dress.  It is beautiful.  I will cry, I already have tonight.  I have the same feeling before every big event (and some small ones too).  Mom isn't here.  And I miss her. On the bright side, Dad remembered it was a big day and called to check the times of the mass with me.  I was going to call and remind him so it was nice he didn't need reminding this time.   That is the other part of my bittersweet feeling.  I am blessed with an amazing Dad.  When he was healthy, he would have been 100% involved.  It is good to know he is as involved as he can be. 

I know my heavy feeling is normal.  I miss my Mom, I wish she was here.  But, I know she is here in spirit watching over us.  I also was able to pass on a tradition she passed to me.  I gave Elizabeth the necklace my Mom gave me and her Mom gave her on each of our First Communions.  Its a special necklace for a special girl. 

I love you Elizabeth Grace and can't wait to spend this wonderful celebration with you! 

4 comments:

Bonnie said...

Oh, Joannie, this made me cry...I feel for you!! Here's hoping to a great First Communion!! What a milestone!! I'll be looking forward to the pictures!

Anonymous said...

Bless your heart. Have a wonderful day!

Tracy said...

Joan, I know your mom was with you in spirit. I never met her, but knowing you, I think you are doing her proud.

Alyson and Ford said...

What a wonderful family, bringing up your children with the love of God. Your family must be proud.

Alyzabeth's Mommy