Mother's Day

05/04/2012

Yesterday was a Mother's Day that had highs and lows. 

Woke to Ella not being able to find where she hid my present from her.  I helped her find it.  It was a container with her favorite treats in it for me.  What a sweetheart - warmed my heart.

Elizabeth gave me a card that made me almost cry.  It's a keeper for sure.

We met the family at mass with Dad and had a good time hanging out.

Then we went to National Cemetary.  Elizabeth and Ella have been asking to see where my Mom is buried and they asked again on Sunday, so we went there after church.  It was a nice moment but of course I cried.  I also explained that I almost always cry when I go to see my Mom.  Elizabeth asked if she could sit on the headstone because that will feel like sitting in Grandma's lap.  Ella gave the headstone a hug too.  The sweetness of children.  We had some nice discussions while there as well.

On the way home, we stopped and got new flowers to plant in our yard and hang from hanging baskets.

Then we went to a late lunch and got a few groceries and filled up the car with gas.

I tried to take a nap while they watched a little TV but it didn't work out.  I think our visit to the cemetary brought out alot of stuff for my girls.  Elizabeth came down to the living room and looked so sad.  So we talked about the Moms she is missing on this special day and we hugged each other.

Then that night while we were watching Survivor, Ella got sad because the Aisan woman was voted out.  She said she looked like her birth mom.  She also was sad because she missed her other Moms too.  We talked more about missing Moms and how that feeling is ok even though there is nothing we can do to change it.  Kind of like me missing my Mom.  Ella replied But it is different Mom, you weren't adopted.   So, the feelings are bubbling up for us all.

Elizabeth and Ella - I love you and I will always be here for you to talk to about anything and everything. 

Mom - I miss you so much.  Like the girls said yesterday - I wish you were still with us.  Love you Mom!