March 23, 2003

I am sitting here amazed by my daughter Elizabeth. Six years ago today we became a family. I am so proud of my girl and humbled by her love. Elizabeth is the beginning of my life as I needed it to be. I have always wanted to be a mom. As I continued to get older and not having much luck finding someone to marry I thought about being a single mom. At first I decided I couldn't handle being a single mom. I was raised by a single dad and I remember how hard it was at times. Dad is an amazing father but it seemed from my angle that it was the toughest thing he ever had to do and I didn't think I wanted to do that alone. A year later I was still thinking about my decision so I really thought about it again. I went to seminars, talked to my doctor and decided adoption was the course I needed to take. Thank you God for making me wait a year before I knew 1000% that I could do this and needed to do this. Without that wait, I would not have Elizabeth as my girl. She is so smart, so loving, so strong, so wonderful. I hope I can do well by her. She is struggling right now with her history and missing China. Last night she was on the couch and asked to go home. I asked where is Home? China and her Foster family. I really can understand missing someone so much and having no control over seeing her again. I wish we knew Elizabeth's foster family and could call them to say Thank you, We love you, We are thinking of you and we want you to know that without you, Elizabeth wouldn't be who she is. Thank you! from Huang Shi Ping and me.





Update:
I was going to stop and get flowers for Elizabeth on the way home from work but she woke up sick today. She is laying on the couch watching tv. Her tummy hurts and she has a runny nose and is very tired. She had soup at lunch and is very quiet right now... I am hoping she is getting some sleep.

Update 2:
I ended up calling the nurse line from our insurance about 4:30. For about 45 minutes poor Itty was in alot of pain. Her tummy was really hurting her. Thankfully it stopped and drinking watered down juice and having some more soup helped. She was even laughing a little by bed time. Not sure if she will be going to school on Tuesday yet or not. I will see how she looks when she gets up.